01.11.2025

As I sit here writing this, I can’t help but feel a whirlwind of emotions—anxiety, hope, determination, gratitude—all tangled up as I prepare to step into a new chapter of my life. The date of my surrender is fast approaching, and while the thought of it brings a certain heaviness, it also fills me with an overwhelming drive to rediscover myself.

Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of soul-searching, trying to understand who I truly am—the qualities that make me strong and the disadvantages I need to work on. This process has been both humbling and empowering. I owe so much of this clarity to my therapist, who has guided me through my tangled thoughts and helped me find order amidst the chaos. It hasn’t been easy to face my reflection, but it’s been necessary.

I feel an enormous need to reinvent myself, to reemerge as a better version of who I am today. I don’t want to just get through this chapter; I want to grow through it. I want to study, learn, and absorb as much as I can so that when I step out on the other side, I’m equipped with the knowledge and strength to build a meaningful future.

In these past few months, I’ve also come to understand the true value of friendship, unconditional love, and support. I’m amazed by the people who have rallied around me, offering positivity and encouragement when I needed it most. These are the people who have shown me what it means to care deeply and without judgment, and I am forever grateful for them.

Then, there’s my family—my wife, my father, and my brother—my anchors in this storm. Their unwavering presence has reminded me that I am not alone. They’ve stood by my side, not just as my support system, but as a constant reminder of the love that surrounds me.

There’s so much in my head right now—dreams, ideas, goals—all waiting to be set in motion. My therapist told me today that what I’m feeling is called faith and hope. That really struck me because, despite the challenges ahead, I do feel hopeful. I’m working hard to pursue a positive outcome, to take this opportunity and turn it into something meaningful.

A new chapter begins soon, and while I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous, I’m also excited. I’m determined to embrace this time as a chance to rebuild, learn, and become the best version of myself.

This is just the beginning of The Honest Shift. If you’re reading this, thank you for being here. Together, let’s prove that no matter where we start, we can always grow into something greater.